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  She doesn't know how many opportunities have been missed, Still holding onto her fear. She keeps on holding onto it. The fear holds her back; She feels like she has imposter syndrome, Afraid of being judged and mocked. She has had enough, So she tries to let go of the fear And pursue her passion.

Nature and age misaligned, Too young to comprehend all the blue humor, Not competent enough to fit into certain situations. Too delicate to mess with others, Often ashamed of the persona. Inner self urges to grow up, But limited knowledge prevents from doing so. Being aware of the immaturity in many areas of life. Nevertheless, Aware of one thing for sure, Capacity for excellence beyond others. Being obsessed with that one thing, and willing to give up anything for it. Perhaps, in time, the sacrifices that have been made and the perseverance that has been put in will pay off. Perhaps, someday. ( This is a mere reflection of my life. I know it's like defaming oneself. However, if, at least, one person finds it relatable and feel less lonely, then I'm okay with that. )

Her life alternates between ups and downs. Sometimes, the obstacles weary her body and soul, but she keeps going and chasing her dream nonetheless.  Though she stumbles through a miserable life, she never stops spreading kindness and love, like morning dew drizzling down on the earth.  Like a morning flower that never fails to bloom, she starts each day with hope and gratitude.  Sooner or later, she will arrive at her destiny and embark on the new life she has been longing for.

I hate traveling as much as I hate vomiting on the way. Saliva starts cumulating, giddiness follows  and eventually ended up with awful puking. Once the dark side is overcome, a soothing side awaits you. Gaze out of the window and look at those running trees, birds flying, random squirrels running from time to time.  Meanwhile, the gentle breeze wafting through your body, resfreshing your mind and body,  so you get back to life.

Let me sentimentally regurgitate the trash ideas out of my rusty mind once again. Life is seemingly void and dull without someone to whom I belong. When nostalgia strikes me, I am as weak as a feather having no direction, floating wherever the wind blows, and so my life has no direction. Oh sweetheart I am counting the days without you.

Back in 2018 one of those mornings - Where the morning dew were drizzling, we were running and chasing on our happy road. The sound of birds chirping , the sound of your barking and my flowing sweat marked our joyful moment. Now it's all gone and so are you. They said time heals pain, The memories of us are still engraved in my heart, you are truly missed mama(my dog)

The roaring thunder reminds me of your pre-eminence, the nimble lightning reminds me that you are able and sufficent. O my inner self don't you stop being scared, you're safe in the palm of his hand.

Why do we get angry when things get tough? Why do we forget counting all the blessings we have had when we can't get what we want?

A dreamer, dreaming of life. Unknown obstacles are on the way. Mind starts shivering and wishing to vanish in the air.

Can you not draw near to me? Why do you give me anger and tension. Are we not destined to be together? Why I am feeling like you are running away. Who do you think you are? making me so tired. I chase you every day, I would not stop. Yes I know you have no partiality, you remain close to those who put in the hard work.

I am weak and become weary, I stumble in the midst of shambles, May I soar in the sky like an eagle. As a child merrily swings, May my life contentedly sway.

As the saying goes"the beginning is the hardest" The process may not be fun. Once the process is accomplished, all the efforts will bear sweet fruit which inturn will be a blessing and give joy for others.

She lives with beauty inside. Old, wrinkle face, white hair, doesn't matter. The beauty wraps around the heart, spreads out the whole. The remnants of the beauties scatter all over creation. Youth vanished, Strength extinguished, doesn't matter. As a flower by the water never fails to bloom, so the inner beauty remains.

Nothing else can catch my heart away from you... This spirit inside of me is screaming searching for you. Nothing else could give me serenity in the midst of this messy life. This life is fading day by day. Am I lost, confused... Was it just a fantasy?

Everything has its own beauty, God created everything on purpose, we human beings follow our flesh desire rather than God's will, for God said in the bible that, even King Solomon with all his wealth was not embroidered as beautiful as those flowers, so we are best and beautiful when we live a life by God's desire and that is life purpose as well. Live a life with joy and peaceful no matter how hard life could be... let go all your past behind, regardless of all those negative stuffs, start appreciating everything that surrounds you, right from the moment you actually begin your life with a happy mind set, then, life will bring full of blessing just for you.

The day is fading, a full-grown man is resting quietly on a chair. There is nobody beside him, but a flying jet above and the setting sun at the edge of the world. He is filled with loneliness, in his mind there's nothing but his beloved sweetheart. He is waiting and dreaming of her. When will she come back?

As I see this little boy as he stares at the world outside, sitting on this highly branched tree, a lot of feelings flood my mind. It's like when dark cloud covers our surroundings everything turns black. Sometimes in this world, we are used to facing many hardships in our lives. Such things are difficult to endure, but even in our darkest hours, wherever we are, and however dark it may seem, there is hope. Hellen Keller once said, 'nothing can be done without hope and confidence,' so let us not lose hope.

As the sun goes down, a little boy walks out in the paddy field, saying goodbye to the setting Sun. Can you feel the cold winter coming? Christmas is approaching, and no matter how you feel, you don't know what could happen in your life. It's time to live happy lives with no regrets. Let go of all that negativity.